Posting to avoid homework

Well I am supposed to be doing my homework, but since I am trying to avoid it, I thought I would do a quick post. Well, the homework thing gives it away, if any of you didn't already know, I am back in school. Yeah I am really super happy about this. I am finally going towards being a midwife. I really wish I was able to be a traditional midwife and still make a living but it just isn't very practical when I have four kids to help take care of.

Well anyway, things were at there ultimate bad with the marriage thing, but then I broke down, insisted that I wanted to go back to school and he knew he didn't have a choice, so here I am. Funny thing is, he is doing much better mentally. I worried about it a lot because I didn't want to leave the kids home alone with him if he was acting mean or nuts, but he is doing good. It seems that he finds more purpose in the home now. He takes care of the little ones during the week late in the evenings when I have to help with the Thurston Players or when one of the girls has rehearsal and then on Sundays he takes care of them all day while I am in Chemistry class. He took them grocery shopping last week and he seemed to derive so much pleasure from feeling successful in this endeavor. He now knows how to read Cella books to get her to sleep and knows how to get Nini and Malane to bed on time without a huge deal. This seems little, but getting those two to bed without a huge melt down is NOT easy! Anyway, things are going well right now. He is taking care of his physical and mental health and although things will never be perfect, they are looking up.

I am however very grounded in the knowledge that this could all come to a crashing holt at any given moment, I am praying for stability everyday though.