I feel so tired

I'm tired today. More emotionally tired than physically tired, although I am pregnant with baby #4. I am living with a crazy man. My husband is professionally undiagnosed, but anyone who knows him knows that he's not quite right. He's a good person don't get me wrong and people generally like him. He loves his children desperately, his wife conditionally.

I think he has OCD, I know his mom was diagnosed but she was obsessed with cleanliness. He is not obsessed with cleanliness but with health issues. He is a researcher who studies metabolic diseases. First it was hypertension and now it is diabetes. Well enough, but he is obsessed with it. People are afraid to eat things in front of him because of what he is going to start saying to them. He can't go out in public without pointing out health issues, whether they be a good jogger to an overweight young person who is personified as evil.

Even this would be hard enough to deal with, but I have it all directed towards me and my health issues continually from when I wake in the morning until I go to bed at night. Sometimes are better than others. However he came home and caught me drinking a coke the other day and wanted to divorce me for it. This rant has went on for days and I feel so emotionally tired!

I am supposed to go to a party with him on Saturday, a party with all his healthy researcher friends. He has told me that he is too embarrassed to take me to the party because I am so fat. I am not really that fat, but I don't fit the "I starve myself at least once a day" and run marathons image that he would like me to. I have offered to not go but then he told me that he really 'needed' me to go with him.

I feel tired!